Jul 8 Tue
Does God want to heal me?
God is ready to heal us if we trust him.
Jesus was teaching in the synagogue. Among the crowd, in an uncomfortable posture, was a woman who had had a sickness for eighteen years; she was bent over and could not fully straighten herself.
The woman had heard about Jesus' miracles, and perhaps the hope of being cured had begun to stir in her heart.
“This woman was aware of her sickness and was ready to apply the remedy. If you are often ill at ease, if difficulties rob you of your peace of mind, if you've had a deeper fall than usual, recently or in the past, then turn to the divine Physician. Make a deep, sincere examination of conscience to discover the root of your sickness. For the same thing that happened to this unfortunate woman can happen to you: she had a malignant spirit. And notice her plight: she was bent over! She couldn't look up; she couldn't see the stars shining in the heavens.”
That woman's physical infirmity can be likened to some people's inability to detach their gaze from earthly possessions and pleasures. They are unable to contemplate divine realities. If they remain in this posture, closed off to God's action, they bend closer and closer towards the earth.
“I know, none of this may happen to you, though it could, for one reason or another. But if this advice isn't of use to you personally, it may at least help you if this difficulty arises for others, whom you have to enlighten with the light of Christ...”
Do not stay bent over, because you don't want to straighten yourself. Be humble. Acknowledge your mistakes. Raise your sights to heaven. Don't look at things only from your personal, selfish point of view. Have faith, have hope, and be assured of Christ's love for you. And if ever the horizon seems to be blurring, and heaven and earth converge, keep your gaze on heaven. That way you'll do a lot of good on earth, by looking to heaven.’
If you do something very foolish, be sincere about it right away and ask for help. And everything will be sorted out. This will give you a lot of peace and joy, and the certainty of victory. Put into practice the advice you have been given, and continue forward.
Our trust in God will never be deceived, for we are his children. No matter what happens in our lives, God remains our Father. He loves us without limit and counts on our wretchedness to make us holy, if we struggle. Your prayer should go like this: "My wretchedness weighs me down, but it doesn't overwhelm me because I am a son of God. I want to atone, to Love... I want to turn my weaknesses to good use, convinced that our Lord will not abandon those who place their trust in him."
Carry on like that. I assure you that - with God's grace - you will succeed, and you will overcome your wretchedness and your shortcomings.